2015

I find myself in the most awkward stage of my life so far, since middle school, at least.  My late 20's.  It is official, folks.  In four days I will be 28.  For those of you in your 30's, 40's and 50's, sitting there rolling your eyes and cursing my name because, "28 isn't even that bad."  You're right.  It isn't bad.  I'm not THAT old.  I don't have any plans to go secure a grave plot for myself or just go ahead and let the gray hair do it's thing.

Now, is the time where I start worrying about shit I need to do that I haven't done yet.  Cry over my lost youth and about how I am, "Nowhere near where I thought I would be at 28."  Only for maybe the first week, though.  Then I will cope, dust myself off and go back to the wonderful world of adulthood.

Shit, up to this point, has been a challenge.  Nothing like a 4 year old to remind you that you aren't as young as you thought you were...or that you're fat, your boobs are big and that you are just overall old and lumpy.  That's okay, because I already knew those things about myself, but I still have years and YEARS to gather ammunition to use against her.  It will be glorious.

Many things have changed since I started this little blog.

• Moved at least 5 times
• Got divorced
• Coped with divorce
• Got a job
• Drank A LOT
• Dated/Bedded a couple of douche bags
• Realized the error of my ways
• Stopped drinking as much
• Got a boyfriend
• Lost said job
• Lost a ton of friends because people are shady as fuck
• Moved on with my life

Granted, some times I find it hard to breathe, be it anxiety or poor health conditions, but I find also that it gets easier when you take people and things out of the equation when they have no business being there in the first place.  Times are tough and they are not going to get any easier.  I will probably still complain about things I can't control.  I will still help people, even though I know better. Those are just simply flaws in my character that I won't change. What I hope to gain from being, "Older but wiser," is the ability to maybe complain a little less and help in a different way.

I'll still dream and make plans for more awesome things to come.  I have high hopes for 28.